Greetings from Chicagoland, Illinois, USA!! I have been living here since late November 2017. I ventured across the country to temporarily relocate here for work. I've been living in the village suburbs of the "North Shore" area; a place I was previously familiar with. I am expected to live here until some time this summer to explore an unforeseeable, yet hopeful, future.
I have been living out my first real winter with enthusiasm and appreciation. I love the variant weather and cold, especially the snow. There's something about walking out into a cold brisk morning and instantly feeling alive and awake; it is almost primal and instinctual the way cold activates your senses and being. Having been a SoCal native my whole life, and a valley girl at that, I welcomed the experience of "getting out of my comfort zone." So here I am, going within, hibernating, domesticating, appreciating, remembering, reminiscing, reflecting, dreaming, exercising, creating, connecting within, and looking ahead (when I'm not working).
I will provide a thorough re-cap of my successful and magical month-long trip European adventure of last summer (2017). Italy was a blast, and England was and eye-opening cultural experience. Not only did every single person, moment, timing and thing work out, but I also gained some wisdom and insights along the way. Stay tuned for that.
At the beginning of 2018 I started off the Gregorian New Year with strong intentions to improve my habits, short comings, and quality of life. On January 1st I started a 40 day Puja to Ganesha, and also an online work out program with one of my best friends, Melissa Banos of www.theinnertheory.com. The Puja to Ganesha proved worthwhile, grounding, exploratory, and soothing at times. The workouts have given me a sense of connection, accountability and virtual community.
Aside from my exercise and work life, I have also been able to rekindle my fondness of making jewelry and facilitating experiences. I taught an 11 year old how to make earrings, and a necklace, and I also shared with her, a friend, and a 6 year old how to make vision boards and collage. I soon hope to share some rhythm and frame drumming wisdom while I am here.
Chinese New Year just recently passed and I welcomed that Fire energy in along with the Year of the Mountain Dog. There is work to be done ahead. The Celestial new year is upon us as well with the arrival of the Spring Equinox when the Sun enters Aries. My inner landscape is being prepped for these seeds I am sowing... we shall see what summer and autumn will reap? Until then, stay tuned for the next blog post. Much love, Mary Ann.
I am asking for a financial miracle in hopes of making a long-time Birthday wish come true! I am raising money to attend the annual "Rhythm Is The Cure" 7-day workshop in Tuscany, Italy, August 17th-24th,2017!
I need the help of my friends, family, community and strangers to help me further study Italian frame drumming with Alessandra Belloni. I have been playing drums since my 23rd birthday, and soon I will be 35 on July 24th! Four years ago I started playing the frame drum with Miranda Rondeau. Two years ago I met Alessandra Belloni and began studying her Southern Italian Tambourine style as well. It has been my dream to attend her Rhythm Is The Cure 7-day intensive workshop in Italy. Alessandra and I share the same birth date too!
If I can raise the money I can make my dream come true! I just need to raise immediate funds to book my round trip flights from London to Italy and back, as well as register and pay for the course. From there I can get travel insurance, and raise additional funds for other travel and food expenses.
Your donations, no matter how small, mean so much. Any amount of $3, $5, $10, $20, + are deeply appreciated! Paypal and Venmo preferred too (no fees). Just send funds to maryone66 at gmail.com as the recipient. Or feel free to use the campaign link below. If you cannot donate perhaps you can share! Thank you!
Much Love & Gratitude,
Mary Ann Martinez
It's hard to believe time moves faster as we age; I know I am not the only one who feels this way. Months pass by faster, seasons seems to zoom by. Much has happened and shifted since my last blog entry. I have found myself having more travels, challenges, time to drum, challenges and adventures. Rather than write about all that I've done, I'd rather share a few videos from my Youtube Channel....
I was delighted to find a copy of my Skydiving video on a zip drive...
I missed my timed entry for The Broad Museum in Los Angeles, so I finally set up my drum set again...
On the job far away from home..
That's all for now. <3
It has been six months since my last blog entry. In that time life has continued to take me on a whirlwind of adventure, mystery, and a continuation of the dance with the unknown. I am talking about surrender, challenges to rise, moments of grace, moments of pain, divinity, friendship, family, community, tests of faith, meetings with strangers, awe-inspiring sights, simple moments, growth, reflection, expansion, stillness, and everything in between. Honestly, I cannot fully convey, nor remember every little thing that has happened in six months time, and the truth is it does not matter. I realize I am not passionate about blogging. It seems that so many people are feverishly pushing out their blogs, craving attention to be read. "Read my blog. New post. Read my thoughts," etc.. Personally, I have been feeling an internal conflict between bragging about my life (because it truly is awesome), versus leaving something meaningful behind, and savoring these experiences for myself. The more vulnerability I practice in the real world with real people away from my phone, the more private I yearn to become. I do not feel compelled to post all the time whether on Facebook, Instagram, or otherwise, even though I frequently have these post-able moments. Sometimes, I capture; most of the time, I just savor.
Presently, I am at home in Sun Valley, CA. It is Sunday, September 25th; today would have been my father's 62nd Birthday. It has been nearly 10 years this coming November since he has passed. My father was quite a man, he embodied so many archetypal figures that I am just barely starting to grasp and understand. My father, Hernando "Waters" Martinez, played the Hero, the Devil, the Protector, the Champion, the Warrior, the Beast, the Child, the Fool, the Irresponsible One, the Loner, the Manipulator, the Victim, and so on. As I reflect on his life, I reflect on my own. What archetypes have I played? Which ones do I embody? Which ones are former, which ones are my future? The more I become aligned with my own path, my past, and my future, the more I see my reality and life as a whole.
Yet, at this present moment there is this gnawing, this void, this feeling that I just want to stop. How much beauty can one take? How much grace can one feel, see, hear, and know? I feel like I have hit an overload. The signs are always all around me. I see the repetition of numbers (1:11, 11:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44), I see the signs all around, in the clouds, and sometimes in my beer.
"Life feels so full I want to throw up." - Mary Ann Martinez
From moments of a single breath to breathtaking, life is magical when you allow it to be. Now, I am not just talking about grand or simple moments, I am also talking about the unpleasant and unpredictable parts of life, too. Since September of 2015 my life has been in financial uncertainty and instability. I had a job (that I loved) for three years prior to this precarious position and I fell into a nice comfort zone there. My position relocated out of state and I was unwilling to make the move because of my family, friend, and community ties to Southern California. At the time I was making steady income and my position was only three consecutive days a week, with some flexibility in the actual days. Thus, I did a lot of traveling and had many adventures, and plenty of down time during my four days off. Yet, those days of predictability, expected free time, and comfort are over for now.
It has been clear that my practice of trusting that "wherever I am is exactly where I am supposed to be" has tested my faith and further routed me closer to my life path and purpose. Extended bouts of free time have allowed me to further explore my gifts of spontaneity, creativity, singing, songwriting, drumming, self-kindness, stillness, and surrender. Being broke has also allowed me to live more consciously by becoming more DIY and implementing more Zero-Waste home practices. Rather than becoming frustrated and worried, my unwavering trust and confidence in the support of the Universe continues to "pay off" so to speak. I was recently invited to become a contributor for the Therapeutic Drumming Network, an un-paid privilege I am honored to accept. Additional work has been picking up in the paid realm of childcare, so while at times I am unsure as to how my rent will be paid, I continue to practice "outflow" and feel like I am living a very rich life. I worry little about the less than one hundred dollars I have in my savings account, or when my checking balance is short of $25. I am forced to live in the present and live for the day. I take inventory of all that I have rather than what I do not. Money is only one form of wealth, and while I may not have a mass amount of money now, I am rich in health, happiness, creativity, friends, family, resources, savvy, know-how, and then some. My life experiences, including breaking my femur nearly 6 years ago, have proven to me that a relationship with God/The Universe/Source is strengthened in trying times.
Listening to my own spirit rather than my mind has guided me to where I am today, and I am damn glad for it. I often turn down work positions which would pay me handsomely and whisk me away to far off places around the world. Yet, that is not where I belong. I have a greater service to provide here in my community and for myself, and the world. I have a deeper calling that craves to shine even brighter and to be known. So, as my path continues to unfold I may not know the final outcome but I sure do know which direction I am headed and my internal GPS is reliable and strong.
It seems I prefer to run in the winter. There's something about the cool air and shorter days that compels me to put on my running shoes and run. As a part of my cool-down process I always stop by my neighborhood park. My favorite thing to do is to take some time and breaths at this musical installation and play. Sometimes the local folks gather to watch and listen. Sometimes it draws in children to explore this instrument themselves. Yet, most times the park is mostly empty and I get to enjoy playing this instrument all by myself. Here is a little glimpse into my post-run musical cool down. #happysaturday
David Jones better known as David Bowie has gracefully returned to the eternal cosmic dance on Sunday, January 10th, 2016. An 18 month long battle with cancer would claim his life at age 69, just 2 days after his birthday. He was surrounded by loved ones in his home in Manhattan, New York City, NY. David Bowie's work is remarkable, and his career transcends many of his peers in that his ability to innovate, create, re-create, and re-define not only his looks, but also his music is what makes his work timeless and propels his work to live on. Unbeknownst to me as a child I knew many of his popular songs, like "Let's Dance," "Little China Girl," and more. Yet, I was first enamored with Mr. Bowie in his leading role as Jareth, "The Goblin King," in Jim Hensen's "Labyrinth." I was memorized by his voice, presence, style, and eyes, but more specifically he stole my heart with the following scene:
Once I learned the lyrics as a child they have never left my mind or heart. Farewell, Mr. David "Bowie" Jones. Thank you for being a legend, an inspiration, and for the gift of your life and creatively artistic talents. The world loves you, and so do I.
It is the first Monday of 2016. While most folks went back to work, or perhaps school, normal life resumed. The holidays are officially over. Personally, I am dancing with job insecurity, and financial instability, and yet my belief and practice in trusting that the Universe will continue to provide for me gives me more free time than most folks. I accept. It is in this free time or on these free days that I can tune into life, tune into the day, and let life flow and unfold.
Originally, I was supposed to wake up early and go hiking. My friend rescheduled; I went back to bed. When I awoke and got out of bed at 10 AM with my phone still on silent but in hand I saw that to my surprise I had an incoming call from one of my male best friends. This man is and always has been an integral inspirational person in my life. I call him Obi-1, because in 2010 he mentored me on and off the mountain for snowboarding, and also in life. After we hung up my soul flames were lit and I started to burn with the day. Our friendship is enhancing for us on many levels. He is Aries, I am Leo, we share fire. Fire is important during this time. It is important to keep that inner fire lit because it is winter. We each need to be seen, to be supported, and to be heard. Sometimes a phone call is all it takes. Like lighter fluid, a good friend can light up your flame.
Let us welcome and embrace this time of winter in whatever way we can. For me, some days I do nothing, or I rest a lot. Today, I spent my day doing some dancing and moving, some yoga and breathing. I prepared some food for the day. At one point I found myself singing, as I do a lot, and a song came out. Also, I could "hear" the accompanying drum as I was singing. So I picked up the drum, set my intention, and played from the heart. Powerful vibrations. Then, I decided to share this medicine and my energy by capturing it because maybe there are souls ready to receive it. Love, peace, forgiveness, and tenderness are woven into this intentional, freestyle piece. Lots of love. Enjoy. <3
I am a former (what I deem) "concert junkie." I have witnessed well over 500 different artists, performers, bands, ensembles, and groups live in concert in my 33 years of living. My first concert was probably around the age of 6 when my mother took my sibling(s?) and I to see "Mint Condition" live at Magic Mountain, California.
After some R&B goodness I would move onto Suicidal Tendencies live at the Santa Monica Civic Center in December of 1994. It was the first time I had understood my real, true age and the severity and maturity of the activities I was partaking in. I knew my place as I was walking into the venue. So many faces looked at me with expressions saying, "little girl, you don't belong here." So I kept quite, observant, and cool. I was 12 years old at the time. Next, I would work to earn money to buy concert tickets. I would learn that you cannot always rely on others to go "see" something. I was willing to go solo, and I did many times. I learned to be front row on the barricade rail. My all time low was buying concert tickets instead of paying my car note... yeah, it almost got repossessed. My all time claim to fame is having witnessed 25 shows in a period of 9 months in the year 2003. I was 23. Now, I am 33 years old. In my time I can say that the best live performance I have ever witnessed was the entire evening's performance of Dead Can Dance at the Gibson Amphitheater along with David Kuckhermann and Miranda Rondeau. One word: marvelous. The voices and musicianship of each individual was remarkable, captivating, exquisite, and alluring. Bravo.
Another really great performance act is Tool. Being a drummer myself, Danny Carey is one that I highly esteem. Here is he is with VOLTO! live at The Mint in Los Angeles, California. I had a great time at this show to say the least.
Maybe I was having a bit too much fun... I may or may not be the one singing and hollering. <3
I would just like to OFFICIALLY state that I am the one who came up with and created the saying:
"HAPPY ANNIVERSARY OF YOUR EXISTENCE ON THIS TERRESTRIAL PLANET WE CALL EARTH!"
I love birthdays! I love science! I love saying something originally. If you have ever read or seen this before, it is because I have been posting this on Facebook and people's walls for years. -Love, Mary.
It is summer time and it is hot here in Southern California (even though we have been experiencing an unusually mild summer). Summer days always make me miss the snow. I love snowboarding season.
Here is the final edit for my 2015 snowboarding season (January to March). Thanks to everyone I rode with and shared the mountains with this past season. Thanks to all the resorts, staff, workers, resort towns, and people in between that make snowboarding possible. *Think SNOW*
Yes, I like laying on the floor to de-stress.
I have been a nanny for the past 11 years and have thoroughly enjoyed nearly all of the work I've done. I especially enjoy moments of uninhibited play time filled with carefree character play and acting. Here is 10 seconds of captured silliness. Video capture by Peter Harris (age 7) in San Marino, California. Actor: Mary Ann Martinez. Tuesday, July 14, 2015.
About a week ago my frame drum teacher Miranda Rondeau posted a video of her "Dance Challenge - Day 2" in our private Facebook group. I accepted the challenge wholeheartedly. Here is the first of five offerings to come.*
*I decided to be bold on the first day and take the challenge one step further by also making it a "body challenge" in that the attire I wore and specifically chose was an never-before-worn outfit that I would not normally allow myself to wear. This is my attempt at accepting and embracing my body for how it is now, trying to love it just the way it is, and further step into sexy, Goddess femininity. Thus, this is also a practice in vulnerability. <3
Five years ago, today
The Universe spoke to me
Guiding me towards Love
And to fulfill my destiny
How could I know that it was fate?
That through my love for You
I'd discover my Soul Mate
Transcending myself and breaking the molds
Of narrow minded-ness and agreements too old
In our Journey together
There was Magic, light, and dark
Revealing my mysteries, shadows, and deepest parts
Of pleasures, of pains, of dramas and truths...
Once upon a time, I gave myself to You
Yet, what I learned is I could only love Me
More than you and what you wanted me to be
Taken for granted I could bear no more
I'm glad you found a way to close the door
To the chemistry, to the sex
Now I can officially say you're my "ex"
I own it, now it's true
I don't believe I can ever go back
To settling for less, and settling for lack
That would be de-loving myself
That would offend my Soul Mate
And I love Her, She's Beautiful
You know Her, She's great
So Thank You, and I love You
For taking that Journey with me
Feeling your love and blessings for eternity
Written by Mary Ann Martinez
Wednesday, April 8th, 2015
Started at approx: 2:25pm in San Marino, CA
Completed in Sun Valley, CA
At the time of this writing I am currently enrolled in a frame drumming class with Miranda Rondeau for a 6-week, all-female frame drumming course. Miranda is a Goddess of voice and drum. My life has forever been altered, and has returned to source, because of my exposure to her. I have been playing the frame drum for two years now. It is my meditation; my connection to source. It has been my intention to record offerings and offer them to the world however they may be interpreted or felt. Here is tonight's offering of many to come; free downloads via Soundcloud. I am aware the timing is off, but no worries.
Here is my first frame drum recording from 2013. The crickets were out.
Another recording of the same year around the same time as above.
I'm an emotional Virgo. My moon is in Virgo. The rest is pretty much Leo, and a whole bunch of other signs. I have just been doing some clearing out and rearranging of the Facebook photos and albums. You see, I am finally coming to terms with the break-up of my my long-time partner (a Virgo), my first Love of what could have been 5 years next month. I've thrown out the toothbrush. Earlier today while at work I had set an intention to download and filter through the specific album "...captured moments of our journey together" and delete it. I loved this man hard. He was my first true love. In hindsight, I am a bit frustrated because I know I was done wrong by him in character. Not in a victim type way, but in a taken for granted type sense. So, I am frustrated at myself. Our time together was beautiful. But no more. Going through the photos , downloading the ones of "us" while moving the others to other Facebook albums was freeing. You know, moving on. Naturally, all of this lead to my archives of old videos. I have finally made some "Public," because, well, why not?
So once upon a time I learned how to play the drums, studied a bit of music for three years, and later became a drum instructor for Parks & Recreation for the City of Los Angeles. There was a piano in the Panorama, CA location I taught at. During all of this time I discovered my love for piano (not keyboard), because a real piano is percussive, vibrational. At the time of this recording I was single and living on my own; loving the life I created for myself.
So here's me, posted on March 7th. 2009 via Facebook. I am coming around again... single, independent, capable, able, independent, living by myself and loving it, and damn proud I am still embracing, making, and creating music. We all know that #heartbreak makes for good material. Stay tuned for new tunes. <3
Mary Ann Martinez
Writings of a restless soul.